zoomingupthathill: (and i'd get him to swap our places)
Max Mayfield ([personal profile] zoomingupthathill) wrote in [personal profile] polarvoid 2023-04-22 10:55 pm (UTC)

cw: self deprecation/abuse logic/victim blaming

You shouldn't.

[ How she looks... She looks feverish, honestly. She says this, a shaky whisper, but she makes no attempts to pull away. Can't even be strong enough to stand on her own anymore. ]

I'll- I'm gonna hurt you. I m-may not- I won't mean to. But I'm- I'm not a good person, Basil, I'm- angry, and mean, and- n-nothing made me that way.

[ Something aches behind her eyes. It's not exactly true. But a part of her wholeheartedly believes it. ]

I'm sick. [ What Lucas- Vecna said, parroted, eyes drifting down, away from the blurs she can see into the darkness. ] And- this place is only, it's only gonna m-make me worse, 'til I'm- just as bad as- Billy, or Neil, I'm not- good enough, fo- for any of you.

[ Fervent almost whispers. A limp hand grasps for Basil's tail, nevertheless. She's saying what she believes, but at the same time—don't leave me please don't leave me i can't be alone again

It all makes her sick. She makes herself sick. ]

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